WOW

WoW,
this is how my day started, a lousy sleep after a lot of fags and after few hours of sleep a bloody wake in the morning by some shitty alarm clock, its rush hour man rush hour, no matter what has happened in previous night but u have to wake up and do some shit and do more, catch a fucking auto to a place where my office fairy was there , get a hang of that and after that a sleep for an hour came to place where few years back I least wanted to come, alas is not the word u might be thinking this is what a fate has to say, even u and I don’t believe it, but we have to believe that there is some fate in all of our lives, and have to face that, have to face your worst dreams, as usual I am not a batman who faced a worst dreams and came out with flying colors, at least I can try to come out in a black and white if not flying colors!
My fairy stopped at gate lot of big boys peeping out of fairy waiting for their turn to get out of that, nevertheless I was the last one not by choice but and indecent understanding of the big boys, as I m the only one survivor of phyan so I have to be the last one to get out of the fairy, wow a covenant of black dogs saluting the big boys. But why don’t me, oh yeah I got it I am not a black dog yet, still as fresh as pamolian an stupid dog who didn’t do but barking even on known ones, same things I am doing, my barking starts with morning itself at my palace I bark on myself and at my kingdom I bark at my chef, I m not wrong at all, its not my fault seriously, he didn’t gave me enough of dough to satire my clinch. So do I , I do have to bark at him! After the famous luxury at my kingdom I was suppose to come at my throne. My pawn ask me to go to a war today but I never had a war before how can I go, and I m ill equipped.

Never mind I will be surging out like a knight and that knight will be thrash all the misnomers

@ Office now Just like that

tassavur se andhiyon tak tere saath raha

wo bazm e parchayi bankar tere saath raha
gum-e-tanhayin mein ranayian hi likhimuntazzar ke malik,

teri vasuat se kabhi khafa na raha,
hai gumgeen nigaye teri, sarsari hai inme.

tabbassum hai shok hasi teri...

Tarrannum hai shaksiyat meri....

Again Oneirocritica

I am flying down the path of some country side, trying and catching some people,

Got a gun in my hand and start shooting one of my know friend in face thrice but nothings happening, hmm scared and wake-up @ 4 am... Somethings coming didn't realized then ,

but later got the shock of lifetime... Never expected that way...but this is the way life is...

giving u unexpected everytime... hmm

My worst nightmare

its really been long since i am going through my worst nightmare,
this feeling is really not bearable, bringing a junk of thought to my mind,
what will happen?
now what?
how am i going to cope up with further situations?
should i able to bear all this sufferings?
still i am searching for the answers,
still waiting for that heavenly help!!!
feeling like a unsolved puzzle?

bhabha bhalentine

its valentine day actually early morning... and i become nostalgic

prior purpose of writing this is mail is that i saw a dream last night i was going through some route sitting on bajaj chetak scooter of course i am not driving, their is one big man driving that state of art machine in a growling sound plus a CBZ and Hero Honda SS side by side, than suddenly on my left hand side a Big Park was their and right hand side a line of houses, i still didn't recall whats that then again in my dream we take you turn and start driving from opposite direction and you don't believe we are on same road but this time park is on right hand side and houses are on left hand side :O.... i observed house number having series of 5s ?
we did it for few more round until petrol starts saying common...
knock knock... on my door...friends calling for swimming.
i wake up... remember the dream and instantly a SMILE came at my face...
then i remember that was year 1998-99 Class X Simpkins school that was our usual voyage while going for coaching and all.

Faith

You have unearthed the fathom holes in me.

Derived thy consequence beneath all worlds.

Dimming in dawn is not you told me, brighter in dusk what I used to do to me.

Sting in memories with you, blossoms my heart with joy.

Learned with you, from you.

Always dreamt of getting along with you wants to make your face happy and filled with joy.

Memories may fade with me but some conviction by you in me! Will be there for forever…

My childhood grandeur comes true, but by you..

My first paper plan, my first cart, my first full alphabets, my first wooden chair, my table…

First geometry, clueless trigonometry…

And worth wasting time in improving my signature…

Owner of my money still there in that old post office…

Those morning walks to old haunted house …

Where even elephants can’t survive.

Those afternoon mesmerized gags…

And evening bed timers.

Always dreamt to be like you.

Keeping in the faith in conviction…

The only word thou brings nearer…

Faith…

 

BATTLE

BATTLE

 

 

I am not living my life I am surviving,  but sometimes I realize that I am not even surviving, I am actually battling it out with adversities came in front of me, Yes adversities in many form right from my childhood, ever since I tried to recollect my first consciousness as child ,I am terrified don’t want to remember don’t know why but have to forget, forgetting that past only help me in living a “happy life” , my first conscious memory reminds me that I am sitting on bed trying to learn C as alphabets simultaneously getting  a bashing by someone for no reason, a reason which can be mitigated by general motivation theories for that you don’t need to be HR in MBA.

Having a relationship with adversities is like my buddy they came calling without intimation, come’ on adversities I got enough of friendship with you for last 25 years give a break, I don’t want any relationship with you, I have another friend taking care of me.

Adversities comes calling you aloud when you want them least, it take a lot of conviction to fight out and not just even surviving battling it out like a warrior is what expected “many times”. I believe in fervor with vehemence to avoid any circumstances.

Conviction only doesn’t lead you to success, a whole framework is necessary to pin point that success, each and every part of your life plays a major role even walking alone sometime decide what you want in life! Success!! Ironically adversities play a major role in pin pointing that success.