Faith

You have unearthed the fathom holes in me.

Derived thy consequence beneath all worlds.

Dimming in dawn is not you told me, brighter in dusk what I used to do to me.

Sting in memories with you, blossoms my heart with joy.

Learned with you, from you.

Always dreamt of getting along with you wants to make your face happy and filled with joy.

Memories may fade with me but some conviction by you in me! Will be there for forever…

My childhood grandeur comes true, but by you..

My first paper plan, my first cart, my first full alphabets, my first wooden chair, my table…

First geometry, clueless trigonometry…

And worth wasting time in improving my signature…

Owner of my money still there in that old post office…

Those morning walks to old haunted house …

Where even elephants can’t survive.

Those afternoon mesmerized gags…

And evening bed timers.

Always dreamt to be like you.

Keeping in the faith in conviction…

The only word thou brings nearer…

Faith…

 

BATTLE

BATTLE

 

 

I am not living my life I am surviving,  but sometimes I realize that I am not even surviving, I am actually battling it out with adversities came in front of me, Yes adversities in many form right from my childhood, ever since I tried to recollect my first consciousness as child ,I am terrified don’t want to remember don’t know why but have to forget, forgetting that past only help me in living a “happy life” , my first conscious memory reminds me that I am sitting on bed trying to learn C as alphabets simultaneously getting  a bashing by someone for no reason, a reason which can be mitigated by general motivation theories for that you don’t need to be HR in MBA.

Having a relationship with adversities is like my buddy they came calling without intimation, come’ on adversities I got enough of friendship with you for last 25 years give a break, I don’t want any relationship with you, I have another friend taking care of me.

Adversities comes calling you aloud when you want them least, it take a lot of conviction to fight out and not just even surviving battling it out like a warrior is what expected “many times”. I believe in fervor with vehemence to avoid any circumstances.

Conviction only doesn’t lead you to success, a whole framework is necessary to pin point that success, each and every part of your life plays a major role even walking alone sometime decide what you want in life! Success!! Ironically adversities play a major role in pin pointing that success.

for someone...

jahn teri julfe hai hai sawan wahin hai,
jahan teri palke hai hai sajhan wahi hai,
wo komal sa sparsh tere haatho ka wahin hai,
jahan tere aane ki khusboo wahi hai,
wo rimjhim barasna baarish sa tera,
wo jhunmun jhamakna samandar sa tera,
wo titli si chulbulahat, wo hansini se sadigi,
wo chidaya sa chehchahana, wo papihe si boli,

yaad aya wo saadigi se bhara pal,
jise doondha tha humne har pal,
band palkon mein dekha hai tumhi ko har pal,
tumhi ho wo sajag aur akaash si viral,
jisse poora kar paya na sagar ka jal,

hummein yaad aatey ho,
pal mein sama jaatein ho,
doonde tumhein kahan, doonde tumhein kahan,
sajagta nahi hai, jal si viralta,
jana kahan tha, kissa kahan tha...
tum saath ho ab aise...
tulna karein kaise...



apka apna

my life my dreams my theory

my life my dreams,
hmm.... ma life is majorly affected by my dreams although its sounds stupid but this is the real truth, slowly and suddenly increasing my impulse to savvy in real life. yes in real life ....but where does they come from... am i crazy or on the verge of craziness... nobody knows... i tried finding it out but it gives me true state or circumstances to find them coupled enough... yes with my being as human on earth or may be as simple as there are always a reason behind everything ... may be the reason i dun wanted to remember some people call it paranormal i call it advance or faster calculation of mind in advance like supercompute playing chess made all move in advance and store in the memory to related further in future... yes it is like that only may be i m too imaginative towards real life, making as many results and problems so that i can handle them with no surprise... everybody dun want to creat a worst imagination i am also in everybody but as always on the verge... create a glide of thoughts which need to be suspended with time... but they are already created...
but mind is not like a recycle bin which delete "all untouched and all unanswered thoughts" it will deal with them and then when you are out of world with closed eyes ... then things happen ( all incidents in the past makes basement and architecture of your dream house in which ur imagination ball will jump and recent incidents are like air pressure in ball according to which the ball jumps into those wall and giving big repulsive reaction ...
this is directly or indirectly refer to ur childhood how much u sensitized with situation may or may not be in critical situation but childhood needs to be like a flying kite feeling like going everywhere and there is a thread called relationship which would brings u back to home to meet urs , such as the mind works....
in a subconcious state mind works faster because hes also like flying kite and all thoughts which u didnt treat it'll treat and show you the outcome of all those wall-ball-air pressure games beacuse ball is in minds court now )

then things happen...
they happened to me also consciously sometime ... unconsciously many times...
oneirocritica doesn't leave anything to anybody actually she doesnt leave anybody its like newtons third law whenever ur create wall and fill air in ur mind(ball) things happen and will happen to those who had some irregular architecture in their minds... way back in TIME

inspired in PD class

है भार कहीं हैं , झंकार कहीं
कहीं शोख वादियों में धुंध कहीं,
है रोज सवेरे की सर्द कहीं ,
कहीं सवेरे में अ म कहीं ।


ख्याल-ए - हीजात में मैं जब जगा ,
तो जज्बात - ए - खयालात में मैं नम जगा ,
परस्तिश -ए - इश्क की शम्मा मत जलना ,
जब भी नम में जागोगे तो फली श में कहोगे की मैं ,
जागा तो क्यों जागा ।

ख्याल - ए - हीजात , तस्सवुर -ए - आंधियां ,
परस्तीश की पर्चायियाँ , एहतराम - ए - मरहम ,
इब्तदा -ए- इश्क बस वसुअत -ए- खुदा है ।

some fun in LAW class :)

है सुर्ख शोखियों सा ये सुर्सुराना तेरा ।
है सुर्ख वादियों में यूं लहराना तेरा ।
है शाम सी सर्द हवाए है आज ,
है पास तुम्हारे हम भी और साया है तेरा ।


वादियों में भी गुलाबों सी शोखी ,
रानायियों में भी वो यादों की गर्मी ।
है अआज चले है हम यूहीं जब कल चले थे युही ,
वो शाम कहती थी हम है तुम्हारे ,
वो शाम कहती है कहाँ है वो वादे तुम्हारे ।


आज फीर इन कोपलों में हम खो गए है ,
फीर आज इन हवायों में हम खो गए हैं ।
इस दर्द-ए-दी ल की दास्ताँ तो सुने ,
हम आज फिर तनहा हो गए है।

another mennace

another single day,
actually sunday
cleat purpose today was that to visit some places and had a feel of these things,
but my oneirocriticia wont make me sleep soundly ,
started ..
dun remember it was me or some another guy just saw this as first person shooter game started
with a guy working over somewhere having 2 dogs black, we started wallking from one end of the road but soon stuck somewhere near a over bridge and we take left and moving towards a water treatment plant , but wait i think i left behind something not exactly something there is some guy with his children's and what hes doing in that area having flooded with bullets holes in that old fort shaped round watch tower like qutub minar ,
well we move further and we find some water cleaning plant
it a long one we keep on moving till end and then again a village area started and that person who is supposed to be bank manager some thing started moving fast
and again we find some lake covered with green algae and that guys started swimming and went to his villages as hes saying again and again hes from some maan village... where he find his own people and all.
next i left alone and started searching for getting into my town and my village where i can recognize people but soon i find one family where they give some shelter to me to live for a night
but soon i realize i was hostage and they trapped me inside some room ,
from room balcony i saw some people students studying and eating and drinking etc...
i called those people and what they did to me is wrong mean they r not interested in listening to me so what i did was that i started shouting pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee helppppp meeeeeeeee
plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz help me
then i saw one big man coming in his palki
and m saying to him come rescue me but he also didn't listenn....
.
.
.triingggg
trinngggg
yes this my cell phone ringing i just got a call from friend i wake up now after having this weired dream....
saying to myself wake man need to rush people are waiting at CCD DOMS ....
but just back in mind thinking of again as usual....
are these sight enough for ....oneirocritica